What a fuckin day. I was tired. I called to say i was going to bed. And then i ended up just coming back here, sitting up, anxious, uncomfortable. Alone. Its lonely in other peoples houses when they arent there with you. Im sick of this lifestyle man. Somethings gotta give. I dont even know about this whole thing anymore man. I dont know if i like this. Maybe i just need a break to clear my head. I talked to my mom for a while about everything today and thats when the truth usualy comes out. Is this just a matter of convenience and utility? it might be. Is this how itapos;s always gonna be for me? it seems to happen this way. This one just... I didnapos;t really see it coming. Im still new to all this life bullshit... Im just a fuckin kid. I have stayed so intentionally ignorant to the lifestyles im being forced to move in and out of, it just makes me dysfunctional and uncomfortable. How do i shake these feelings? i dont wanna sleep on this couch. I donapos;t wanna sleep on anyones floor. I just want a cave sanctuary where i can play piano download music and sing. And i can actually get some sleep and some time for myself. I mean fuck man. Itapos;s 2:30. I canapos;t deal with this bullshit. All i did today was wait around for these shitty feelings to subside and just when i thought i was over it istarted feeling lonely. And now, ironically, what should have been the cure has just made me more alone. My horoscope told me i need to find the way out of my methaphorical prison. Im looking around, and i just donapos;t know what else to do.
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